LIFE UPDATE----------------------Almost 3 days of no post?! I am sorry about that.I had some difficult times.Today was the day I received the medication I need to block my male hormones (once every 3 months).The week before all that, I get very emotional and a lot of doubts and bad thoughts. I feel selfish for wanting this.I know this is just a stupid phase filled with wrong thoughts and I need to push trough it.So i did.I just got my medication.I am thankfull for the support I received and the advice from family, friends and princess diamonds.The stress is gone. I did it, its over. I did the right thing.sigh of relief